Things That Make This Bear Go Hmm

Bright Eyes

This is the first day of my life
Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed
They’re spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

So I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever, I especially am slow
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

I remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange, you said everything changed
You felt as if you’d just woke up

And you said, “This is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
Now I don’t care, I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you wanna be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We’ll just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides, maybe this time it’s different
I mean I really think you like me

Nanowrimo’s almost over and I’ve managed (so far) to write….one word: “well,…”. I don’t think them people at nanowrimo’ll see this as a novel… hell, it’s not even a sentence..
Well sure, by now everybody had found out what kind of a lazy writer I am.. not that lazy mind you, but coming up with a 50000 words novel in a month…hahahaheheuhehmm…m…yeah…

Damn, another problem with my handheld..
..the program that I use most suddenly refuses to cooperate..

I mean, c’mon, if it’s just a game or sumtin then I wouldn’t have a problem..
but Doc to Go!!
I can’t even open my documents… let alone to make a new one..!

AAAAARRRGGH!
Man, I really hate to work on notepad…

My God..another not-too exciting saturday.. I got a whole closet full of ‘em..

Actually, I was looking forward for an exciting day, but then a change of plan..
..so common nowadays..
So..stay at home instead.. which is a good decision because then I can do some catching up on overdue projects…
..so I worked…which lasts for…30 minutes..
I mean…this is saturday man! Who wants to work on Saturday?!..

Spent an hour or two pondering on what to do for the rest of the day..then another two hours..
..till I came to a decision to watch dvd instead..
..watched King Kong (the original 1933 version, where an island somewhere near Sumatra was a home for Stegodons, T-rex, Brontosaurus’, Irianese, and of course The Great Kong himself, whose turn-ons are shrieking, scantily-clad white women..)

After that, I chose to watch…disc 4 of Return of The King extended DVD..which happened to be the highlight of the night..one day I have to be like them…

..and now, well.. I can’t say that I’m satisfied but.. it’s better than the last..hopefully sunday’ll bring something new..

Alas! This is such a boring entry..sheeshh

PS: My heart beats a little faster today…I wonder why..

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Calling You - Holly Cole

Sunday, My last day of unemployment..
Two days…not bad, but since it’s weekend afterall, so.. what’s the difference?

Anyway, tomorrow, I’m officially an employee of LMC..
Thrilling ain’t it? Not really..hehehe
I’m yet to know what working with Oq will be like..well, guess I’ll find out soon
Right now I just have to hope for the best and pour myself into LMC..

A new page indeed…

BB
Tersiksa Lagi - Utha Likumahua (bukan lagu yang cocok ya? ah hell)

…”there’s someone waiting for you..”

That what my friendster horoscope said..
’someone’ eh? Well…I’d be lucky if I can spot this ’someone’..
But then again, I’ve been relying myself a lot to luck.. someday it’ll run out
and who knows what’ll happen to me then…

So, before it runs out, guess I have to rely on luck once more..
C’mon, find me that ’someone’.. Not that I’m desperate.. halfway but not yet..
I just long for that so-called emotional roller coaster… The thrill to make one feel alive..
and for that, I’ll walk to that corner.. whoever you are, stay put!

BB
Another Time - Lifefusion

Yesterday I rummage my hard drive and found quite an extensive collection of my previous design works..
Some are my works from my time at PC.. being my first ‘real’ office..
The other are works from various places and people…

Actually I’m not a real graphic designer, meaning that I don’t have a proper training as a designer…
I learn my tools by myself.. so I can’t compare myself with Fr for instance..
Fortunately I’ve a little talent, a little mind you… and that helped a lot
at least, I can say that that talent opened many doors for me..and that alone worth many many more that the money that I got from designing…

I really have to thank Mnd and Im for their unrelentless kicks… they’re the ones who gave me the key to first door…
For that, I’m eternally indebted to them…(although I’m sure that I have paid them in full by submitting myself to their tortures)

Anyway, I’m thinking of compiling all of my works to make me a portfolio… I’m sure that it’ll come in handy.. especially in times when money is tight…like right now..

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Realm of Love - Lifefusion

One of the things that I fear most is to lose a friend…
…and lately I’ve experienced many things that.. well, close to losing a friend..

I don’t want to lose a friend… especially in a way that’ll leave some kind of a grudge..
..but now..now I realize that sometimes, we cannot always have our friend sticking up with you all the time…

There will be time when something fall in between, and separation is inevitable..
Yes, of course I knew that…

But until that day comes, I hope I can keep every friends I have and put as many good memories as I can with them…
..maybe that’s all I can do…

BB
The Boxer - Simon & Garfunkel

Man, I’m exhausted…
The last couple of days seems like a reminder
of days to come…
Although it may not the same,
but I guess it’ll be harder…

Well, maybe that’s what people called ‘professionalism’…
To give it all to what you’re doing…
110% of your effort…

The thing is…
I don’t think that I’ve given my 110%…
Maybe around 70…or less…
I’ve got to do something about it…
Lest I’ll be the one picking the pieces…

But tonight…
Tonight…I have to recharge…
I’m burned out like a candle…

BB
Finding and Believing - Pat Metheny